Suicide doesn’t have to be the answer

I wrote this a couple years ago, posted it on an old blog. And it is still relevant.  Especially in light of Chester Bennington’s suicide. These are still words that need to be heard. Because I want you to understand, that even if it doesn’t feel like it, you matter! Suicide is a permanent solution…

Trauma (therapy Thursdays)

Empty eyes, gazing away- lost and marous. The look when trauma enters the room. It’s like a flickering light, deciding on whether or not it’s going to stay on or off. And once it’s on or off, there is no turning back. It’s like a 50 foot wave has crashed upon the person sitting across…

To my inner teenager (part 3)

Dearest me, adolescent me, First know that you are loved, unconditionally, deeply and profoundly. You have carried my shame and burdens, without complaint. Thank you. You are my inspiration. My poet. My artist. My punker. My goth. My love of horror. My witch. My rebel. You are my dark crafty, creative side. Ever loving Edgar…

To all the haters, judgers, predators, and so on (part 2)

To all the predators, violators, manipulators, haters, judgers, silencers, watchers, persecutors, and those who failed to speak up. To all those who sat in silence and watched my self-destruction. Judged me. Held me accountable for my self-hatred, without seeing the broken, lost soul screaming for love, attention and help. For those who saw me as…

Letters (Therapy Thursdays- part 1)

Letters are a way for us to look at deep pains and wounds, in the safety and containment of ourselves, in the places we feel safest. Letters allow us to look inward at the places we need to hold the most.  The places we need to tend to, to create change and movement.

Depression (Therapy Thursday)

We fear those emotions that we do not like to feel. As if by feeling them they will consume, swallow and change us. This fear is not unfounded. I have been swallowed by depression. Consumed with grief. Changed from melancholy. It’s the dark that we fear. The being caught in quicksand with no life rope….

What affects you- really? Are you an empath? (Therapy Thursday)

Do you know what affects you? How you engage with the world? Are you in tune with how move through the world? Some people are incredibly introspective and self aware. Adjusting and shifting every opportunity they have. Others seem oblivious to how they affect other or how others affect them. Focused on themselves, loosing sight…

The Sin of Happy and the Honor in Misery (Therapy Thursday)

Why is it so hard to be happy? Why do we fight it? Why would we rather spend time complaining then talking about the good things? Well, there are a couple of reasons. Our society thrives off of drama, look at our television shows. We find our meaning as people through suffering. Many of us…

And it matters why?

Caught up in others Good, bad, indifferent matters depends on the lens We care about the impressions that we make on others. Other’s opinions of us matter. Know that all impressions are based on our own perceptions, ideas, feelings, past, beliefs and so on. We can’t always influence how others feel about us. Be kind. Do…

Catapulting where?

Hurling forwards, or backwards, striving for control fear stops, heart ignites So often in life we feel forced towards some direction. We perceive that life is throwing us off the edge, or others are controlling our decisions. We struggle to keep control in our lives, often times undermining ourselves to stay safe. Fear often rules how…

Adrift

Feeling unanchored Floating aimlessly, adrift So often is life Check on more Adrift of the Daily Prompt

Precipice of?

Frenzy fever fear Heart accelerates, drop down Edge of the unknown There is excileration and fear when we are the precipice of life.  Often we want to run and hide, even escape.  Personal precipices are times to move your soul and life purpose forward. To face the change and uncertainty with curiosity and child like…