Trauma (therapy Thursdays)

Empty eyes, gazing away- lost and marous. The look when trauma enters the room. It’s like a flickering light, deciding on whether or not it’s going to stay on or off. And once it’s on or off, there is no turning back. It’s like a 50 foot wave has crashed upon the person sitting across…

All the lonely people

A deep sadness exists today. Profound and devouring. An inability to cope. Light lost in the darkness. Heads down. Absorbed in technology. Losing contact. Lost. Alone. Day after day. Locked away. Trying to cure loneliness with technology. We lack human interaction and ability to connect. Each and everyday the sea of zombies slug through life….

To my inner teenager (part 3)

Dearest me, adolescent me, First know that you are loved, unconditionally, deeply and profoundly. You have carried my shame and burdens, without complaint. Thank you. You are my inspiration. My poet. My artist. My punker. My goth. My love of horror. My witch. My rebel. You are my dark crafty, creative side. Ever loving Edgar…

To all the haters, judgers, predators, and so on (part 2)

To all the predators, violators, manipulators, haters, judgers, silencers, watchers, persecutors, and those who failed to speak up. To all those who sat in silence and watched my self-destruction. Judged me. Held me accountable for my self-hatred, without seeing the broken, lost soul screaming for love, attention and help. For those who saw me as…

Depression (Therapy Thursday)

We fear those emotions that we do not like to feel. As if by feeling them they will consume, swallow and change us. This fear is not unfounded. I have been swallowed by depression. Consumed with grief. Changed from melancholy. It’s the dark that we fear. The being caught in quicksand with no life rope….

What affects you- really? Are you an empath? (Therapy Thursday)

Do you know what affects you? How you engage with the world? Are you in tune with how move through the world? Some people are incredibly introspective and self aware. Adjusting and shifting every opportunity they have. Others seem oblivious to how they affect other or how others affect them. Focused on themselves, loosing sight…

28 days of courage- Day 1

Hello,  Are you ready to step out of your comfort zone? To shine and be seen in all your beauty? Well, I am, and I’d love for you to join me! I’m wonderful at letting others shine and not so good at shining  (that whole being seen and vulnerable).  We, humans, don’t like being exposed,…

The Sin of Happy and the Honor in Misery (Therapy Thursday)

Why is it so hard to be happy? Why do we fight it? Why would we rather spend time complaining then talking about the good things? Well, there are a couple of reasons. Our society thrives off of drama, look at our television shows. We find our meaning as people through suffering. Many of us…

Are we in the matrix? (psychosis and spirituality)

Over the weekend, I watched Year Million. Experts, on the show, theorize that we may already be living in the matrix and if we aren’t now, then in the future we will for sure be uploaded and living digitally. However all the same issues that exist now with the on line universe will exist in…

Is Spirituality Changing? (Psychosis and Spirituality)

I love when the universe brings me themes. This week I had more than one conversation with three very different people about how religion was changing. I was faced with the question, is the religious dogma outdated? Is there a birth of a new tradition that encompasses multiple traditions? And does this new view of…

And it matters why?

Caught up in others Good, bad, indifferent matters depends on the lens We care about the impressions that we make on others. Other’s opinions of us matter. Know that all impressions are based on our own perceptions, ideas, feelings, past, beliefs and so on. We can’t always influence how others feel about us. Be kind. Do…

Catapulting where?

Hurling forwards, or backwards, striving for control fear stops, heart ignites So often in life we feel forced towards some direction. We perceive that life is throwing us off the edge, or others are controlling our decisions. We struggle to keep control in our lives, often times undermining ourselves to stay safe. Fear often rules how…